As promised, albeit (Author's note: I was once told by a Biology professor that words squished together to make another word; i.e., albeit, henceforth, unbeknownst, and notwithstanding, are not words to be used. This isn't a scientific paper, so maybe, just maybe I'll get away with it...) several days late. My definition of tomorrow was highly correlated to the last post's use of the word "suspense". I could say that this was all some game, some trick, some devilish scheme to keep all of you on your toes. The reality is I just forgot, haha. So, as promised I will show you and in the nick of time I might add ;)
M-U-S-T-A-C-H-E-H-U, not quite sure what the H-U at the end means. Maybe, it's one of those fancy mustaches that gets so long the cowboys use their chew-saturated spit to mold into that curled up position...??? Anyways, it's Mustache March in support of male issues analogous to our women ones, you figure it out...not wanting to waste my midnight brain on such big words ;)
Went for a run today...I'm training for a marathon. Well, two of them. A couple endurance relays too. A few half-marathons and a few ultras thrown in there as well. No, I'm not crazy...I'm a runner. That is the plan for this summer alone. That is if my old bones can keep up with the montana miles...
So, back to it. I went on a run today and it sucked. It was just one of those off days where I felt like a beached whale running against 20-30 mph winds. I was going nowhere fast. Although...I did see the weirdest thing. It seems that I could run past the same place every day and months later realize that the person at the corner of the block has a flock of sheep in their yard or they park their car upside down. I don't see the obvious...
I won't tell you what I saw today...I could draw it maybe? But, I think I'll just run that loop tomorrow again with my camera and take a picture. A picture is worth a thousand words. Ohhh, the suspense!
It's weird...I remember when I was little, ALL I wanted to do was grow UP. Now that it has happened, now that I am a "responsible" adult, growing UP is the last thing I want to do. I'd give anything to go back to the simple life of a tot. Being an adult is HARD, let alone trying to be a responsible one. I have to pay the bills. That alone is a mighty feat. I have to make money, that means I need a job...so, I have one. It's one I dislike, it's not what I got my college degree in. Apparently, degree = expensive piece of paper that I can't use, if only I would have known. At least, I pay the bills though, right? I'm not saving...but I'm not putting myself into further debt either.
Being an adult means taking responsibility for your actions. Before I was just put into timeout, scolded or given plenty of chances to get things right. There is no timeout in real life, no time to take a breather and figure your shit out before being allowed to come back into the office, house, etc. It's there right in front of you, life. Decisions are made in the moment. I have to be productive every day. I can't skip work, EVEN if I am sick.
I have a dog, as a result of bringing a dog into my life I took on yet another responsibility. Feeding and exercising her daily is a must, no questions asked. Growing up if my sister or I forgot, there was always the parents to fall back on. There were 4 people responsible, that means I only had 25% responsibility and that seemed a lot! Don't get me wrong I love that I brought her into my life. She's probably the best thing that has happened, really got my butt in gear, literally. but that's another post altogether. Isn't she cute? :)
Being an adult makes me realize a part of this world that I have avoided for so long. Why I chose for the longest time to be uneducated about the world around me I will never know. I always tip-toed around the outside trying to avoid the talks about government, policy, ethics, morals, etc. This wasn't something that interested me. I never followed bills hitting the floor and the people behind it or against it. Growing UP has made me realize that I need to be more aware and fight for my rights, to do research, know both sides of the story. I need to be educated about the world around me. I can no longer allow myself to be ignorant. So, if this is what it's like to grow UP, to become more aware. I can handle that. I'm no longer tip-toeing, I'm diving straight in...
Being an adult makes me realize a part of this world that I have avoided for so long. Why I chose for the longest time to be uneducated about the world around me I will never know. I always tip-toed around the outside trying to avoid the talks about government, policy, ethics, morals, etc. This wasn't something that interested me. I never followed bills hitting the floor and the people behind it or against it. Growing UP has made me realize that I need to be more aware and fight for my rights, to do research, know both sides of the story. I need to be educated about the world around me. I can no longer allow myself to be ignorant. So, if this is what it's like to grow UP, to become more aware. I can handle that. I'm no longer tip-toeing, I'm diving straight in...
